Bummer....

Yesterday after work I was totally exhausted. Like life had been drained from me. So I went home and got on the couch. No training. I did however ride 45 min that morning....

Today was visit the surgeon day!!!!!! I got up and rode the trainer for an hour...legs were good and I was happy. I had visions of me getting the go ahead to amp up the training and get on with getting back to long running...really I knew it was going to happen. Well fuck me it didn't.

Got xrays...Doc comes in looks at scar so we talk about what I have been doing. He mentions he watched the video from RATS last year and said...wow, that is intense...then we started talking about training...I told him what I had done so far and he "seemed" okay with it then he said the words that might as well been a claymore mine in my head..."I don't want you running 2 hours a day 5 days a week". Boom...I told him that was the reason I have asked him if I could run a dozen times...I need that kind of volume to race RATS...

I have no idea what I am going to do now...walk incline at the gym...ride the trainer...run a little? I dunno...I have to let this thing heal. Have to...but I so want to push.

I am sure I will feel better about it but I am pretty low right now. Depressing.