Friday...

So the pitty party last a few hows...I decided it wasn't going to be about what I couldn't do...it had to be about what I could do if I had any thoughts of making it to Desert RATS. It might be a stretch...the doc is nervous...HELL I AM NERVOUS...going forward I am limited on running...so what can I do? I can walk...I can walk uphill on a treadmill...I can ride a stationary bike...so that is what I am going to do...a lot.

Thrusday afternoon...I walked fast for 1 hour and rode a fucking recumbent bike for 30 min...those things are fucking evil.

Friday 45 min on the trainer in the morning...30 on the evil recumbent and 30 on the treadmill...you talk about a HCMF...it is hard mentally but that might be a good thing.

Bummer....

Yesterday after work I was totally exhausted. Like life had been drained from me. So I went home and got on the couch. No training. I did however ride 45 min that morning....

Today was visit the surgeon day!!!!!! I got up and rode the trainer for an hour...legs were good and I was happy. I had visions of me getting the go ahead to amp up the training and get on with getting back to long running...really I knew it was going to happen. Well fuck me it didn't.

Got xrays...Doc comes in looks at scar so we talk about what I have been doing. He mentions he watched the video from RATS last year and said...wow, that is intense...then we started talking about training...I told him what I had done so far and he "seemed" okay with it then he said the words that might as well been a claymore mine in my head..."I don't want you running 2 hours a day 5 days a week". Boom...I told him that was the reason I have asked him if I could run a dozen times...I need that kind of volume to race RATS...

I have no idea what I am going to do now...walk incline at the gym...ride the trainer...run a little? I dunno...I have to let this thing heal. Have to...but I so want to push.

I am sure I will feel better about it but I am pretty low right now. Depressing.

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April 20th, 2010...Tues Twilight Crit Series...C race at 18:06...training came to a ??? Slamming halt as I hit the ground. Scott Haas and I had the field on the rivet...we hit the right hander before the finish turn...he went surfing...I mouse trapped over the top of him...April 29th Doc Stafford installed 9 screws and a plate to hold things in place...

4 Days later with his okay...I ran 3 miles. Fucking crazy...the next day 5 miles....at that point I had proven to my self that I was okay and I could run...now what take the next 5 days off and heal...Desert RATS is a maybe but only 5 weeks away. Can I? Hell if I know but I am going to give it a try...LOL what is the worst that could happen?

Since the operation each day I have been getting better. Less pain, hell there are times I don't even know that it happened.

So here is the first real week back to training:

Monday:
45 min spin on the trainer...felt good. Holding basically one handed sucks.
After work went to the gym got on the mill of dread for an hour...combo of run/walk at steep incline...no worries on the shoulder.

Tues:
45 min Spin AM...felt pretty good.
1 hour on the pave with LMS 9:45 per mile avg...felt okay...got achy for a few min after the run.