Got that feeling again....

Back in 1999 I signed up for my first Ironman...I was fucking wigged out about it for a year. The fears that crept into my mind about finishing the damn thing were overwhelming...10 years later I didn't bat an eye signing up for IMUSA 2008...that made me stop and think about ever doing another one...that and a long laundry list of shit...but this weekend we sent in our entry fee to the Desert RATS race...148 mile stage run from Grand Junction Co to Moab UT...and there it was again the feeling of OH SHIT! Man it feels good. I am so looking forward to a little run in the desert.

Seems that gravity is letting me off the hook as the ankle is feeling better. I have yet to run on it but I haven't had any pain in quite awhile so I am going to do a few test miles here pretty quick. I just want to make sure it is 100% before I start the road to RATS

Got that feeling again....

Back in 1999 I signed up for my first Ironman...I was fucking wigged out about it for a year. The fears that crept into my mind about finishing the damn thing were overwhelming...10 years later I didn't bat an eye signing up for IMUSA 2008...that made me stop and think about ever doing another one...that and a long laundry list of shit...but this weekend we sent in our entry fee to the Desert RATS race...148 mile stage run from Grand Junction Co to Moab UT...and there it was again the feeling of OH SHIT! Man it feels good. I am so looking forward to a little run in the desert.

Seems that gravity is letting me off the hook as the ankle is feeling better. I have yet to run on it but I haven't had any pain in quite awhile so I am going to do a few test miles here pretty quick. I just want to make sure it is 100% before I start the road to RATS

Injuries and the mind of a posure athlete

Well it has been like two years since I last ran..okay well maybe just 8 days but it seems like forever...I miss the woods, dirt, rocks, roots.

There is hope, I took the temp cast off on Wed and to my amazement I was able to walk with little to no pain. I was pretty bruised along the foot and ankle but as long as I didn't twist there was no pain...it has been getting better ever since. I "think" I could actually run. I haven't yet just because I just don't want to screw it up. I have been on the trainer a few times and that is going really well. No awareness of injury at all.

We are going away to Ark this weekend so I hope to try a few road miles while we are there.

Kurt 1 Gravity 1

Don't fuck with gravity

OK well yeah I took a shot at gravity...now I am on crutches and morphine. Fuck me my ankle isn't broke but it is fucked wayyyyy up.

So much for kicking ass.

Fuck

Friday

It is here, I don't much look towards Fridays during the week. I always wonder about people who wish for Friday on Monday's. I always ask...why wish your life away? There are 4 days to live between now and Friday make the most of those.

I am looking forward to some great training this weekend. Rode the trainer abit this morning and will run or ellipical at lunch...TATUR Christmas party tonight then something long running in the morning...a friends daughter's first track meet that afternoon followed by some bike time.

Sunday will be some more! Thend Circ de Sole is that how you spell it? And a nice dinner with Shelley...big date. woo hoo

Nemesis

Every good superhero needs a Nemesis, Batman had the joker, superman that one dude, Spiderman had something...you can tell I thought comic books sucked and I am no fucking superhero but I do have a Nemesis...and well it is Sir Isaac Newton well not really him cause that dude is dead but his friend gravity. Yep gravity pulls on my BFA and makes me slow. I have spent the last 13-14 year trying to overcome that shit. It was a friend once upon a time. When I fought gravity was my assistant that enabled me to direct force to peoples head.

Now it just drags me down...

BUT

today, I kicked it's ass! I snuck away from work for a lunch time run. My legs have been feeling pretty damn good considering all the miles I have been putting in but today FUCK YOU GRAVITY I had the best run I have had in a long time. 45 min avg hr 135 or so not sure how far I went but I think it was close to 6 miles and I was in full cruise

Just can't get enough

The last couple weeks of training have been so fucking good I just had to holla about it. Running is good with some serious hours in, my legs are feeling good on the bike and I actually swam a couple of times. It is good not to "have to" swim.

We just got some Nathan hydration pack and they are awesome. Got some new XT Wings as well and they fucking rock. Best trail shoe I have ever had on my feet.

I ran last night solo and it was really cool. The moon was full and the trails were fresh from the rain. It was stupid fucking cold but after 45 min or so my legs woke up and I was running well despite all the hours I have been putting in.

Thoughts....

I fucking hate funerals. Seriously fucking hate them. Dr. Steve's service was Monday and I went is support of my friends and teammates. I have been pretty bummed since. I really fear that I am going to run out of time. This is the thing that worries me the most. Not what lies beyond deaths shadow but what I will miss out on here. There are just so many things I want/need to do. Will Shelley know how much I truly love her? Will Kyla understand her dad's true love, will my friends know how much they mean to me? I really want to be a better husband, dad, brother, friend I get so fucking frustrated with not reaching out more. I want to scream when I think about how society misses opportunities daily to better the lives of all mankind.

Fuck man life is too short.